Help, I want my family back

Simple and clean, I wonder if anybody actually loves me? I’m so sad lately, seeing my family fall apart is no easy thing. And at this time, I am alone. I want my mother to come home, I wish I did all the right things.. I wish I was the perfect daughter so she would still be here with me.

Everyone I ever loved, has died, or left me and I know I’m supposed to be alone forever.. But sometimes I don’t want to be.

I miss miss my father. I want him to do better. I am so sad for him. I know he is depressed, I want him to get right again. He deserves to die a legend and not a failure. And I know he feels the same towards me.

My brother wants to run away and prove his manly hood.. Not realizing what a strong and powerful man he has always been. But for some reason when he was young we were mean to him. Trying to motivate him with harsh words, this is what my father taught me, this is how I sometimes treat the world. But brother you are so strong, I’ve seen you change lives and love god... I don’t think you realize what strong really is and I think it’s partly my fault.

And to my sister with all that hate in your heart, I wish you could forgive all the times you’ve been wronged. All the pain you feel, I wish I could write it all off.. I want you to find forgiveness, I want you to find trust.. I want you to know and feel truth in love.. I want your movements to be fluent and strong.. Not rocky, rigidity and rough; as they usually are.

I love you family, I’m sorry for the pain you have felt for so long.

Love your sister, daughter, friend;

Stephanie Love

(The Honest Gypsey)